Hello world!

Where do I even begin? I want to share my thoughts, even if not a single person reads them. Do I start with the past? Do I share my hopes for the future? I think it’s probably best to start with this moment right now. I’m sitting on my couch in west Denver. It’s the beginning of May and my birthday is coming up soon. It’s a beautiful Colorado spring day, sunny and 73 degrees, my favorite weather. I have one rescue pup by my side. She hasn’t been feeling great lately – tummy issues. She’s lost weight and I’m worried about her. I’ve been obsessed over her digestion for weeks. She’ll seem to get a little bit better and then she’s whining to go out in the middle of the night again. I’m cooking her turkey and rice. I made an appointment for Monday so I’ll share an update on how she’s doing then. My other rescued pup is obsessed with staring into the neighbor’s yard with the hopes of seeing a rabbit so that’s what he’s doing. I have the sliding glass door open so both dogs can go in and out as they wish. I’ll take him for a long walk later on. My teenager just left to go hang out at the park and play Spikeball with some friends. My Roomba vacuum is going, it does a pretty good job with 2 dogs, but it doesn’t always empty it’s bin. It thinks it’s doing the combo vacuum mop thing but it’s not. Whatever.

So I struggle with ADHD and perfectionism. This is a disaster combo for anyone who wants to accomplish anything. I also overthink everything instead of just doing one something. I’ve tried to start a few blogs in the past but never actually published a post because I was so caught up in getting the layout and theme perfect. I’ve tried many times to keep a journal over the years, just to write in one once and never again. Including this year, journal entry dated 1/5/24 (wasn’t ready for 25 yet). If I figure out how to add photos, I’ll add the evidence. The first thing I wrote? “It’s just a journal but I don’t like the idea of my thoughts being in a written record. What if somebody reads them?!” Wellllll, hello world, here we go.

Anyway, going back to the ADHD, perfectionist, and overthinking tendencies, I’m in this transition era in my life and in the next 7 or so months, I’ll be moving out of this house that I’ve lived in with my family since 2016 and moving to my forever home next door to my parents in Minnesota. My house in MN already has everything that I need so I really don’t want to move anything from here to there. I need to get rid of it all. I know I could sell lots of stuff but it’s honestly so overwhelming to me to do that for some reason (hmm maybe it’s the taking pictures, deciding on prices, posting on apps, talking to people, meeting up with people, shipping stuff out, never mind the actual first step of all, the decision of whether or not I want something and how attached I am to said things). I just want to get rid of it all and I never know where to start so I end up not doing anything. But seriously, I want to go to extreme minimalism. I want my house to feel like a VRBO. The super clean, no clutter kind. This is where this blog comes in. This is going to be my accountability blog. I’m going to do it and I’m going to show you that I’m doing it. And not just for the moving from Colorado to Minnesota even though that’s what I’m going to go work on right after I publish this (I’ll update. Oh no. I’m going to share all of my almost 46 year old thoughts with my imaginary audience. Some teasers – motherhood, grief and widowhood, mid-life as a woman, marriage, mental health… Ready? Good, cause we’re goin’.

If anyone actually reads this first post, hi and thanks!!

xo kelly (5.3.25)